So, the past few days have been a bit of a whirlwind. Grandma is holding on but it seems the end is near. Her breathing has changed, she's become more restless. I just hope she remains pain free and goes peacefully...

In other news, Mike's mother had her annual November party last weekend. We went down and it was really nice. His cousin announced she is pregnant with her second. She became pregnant with #1 shortly after our wedding so she will have 2 under 2. I truly am very happy for her, however, it was very difficult to hear. I had hoped we would be expecting by now and that we would be announcing it to our families. I held it together in front of everyone but then I snuck off to shower and get ready and cried in the shower. I have days when I am fine and there are days when I see pregnant woman at Target and blink back tears...

All I want for Christmas is a baby...