What's been on my mind...

We are officially home owners! It is so exciting but now we have to wait a week to move in. We all know I am not so good at being patient. It's an awesome feeling but there is a lot of other stuff going on in my life too.

This weekend Mike and I went and saw Kiss at summerfest. Mike thought that we should both see them at least once in our lives and this is the 35th anniversary tour so we got tickets. Mike enjoyed it but it was very much not my thing. I don't care to see Gene Simmons stick out his tongue for the entire show or to see him puke up blood. Chevelle opened for Kiss and they were good. They made me think back to high school a bit and left me missing old friends, more about that later. We saw Barenaked Ladies and the Bodeans too. They were both very cool.

My mom has been in and out of the hospital lately and I wrote a long entry about my feelings towards it all. It felt good to get it out but I wasn't able to hit that post button. It seems to private to just post out to the entire Internet and I don't know how to make this subscriber's only or whatever. I'll have to figure that out. Hopefully, she'll go home sometime this week. It was pretty scary though. Her blood pressure plummeted and she was hallucinating.

So, back to missing old friends, I don't know if it was Summerfest or the fact that it is summer but I am very much missing my friends. I'm still really struggling to make friends here. People at work are either parents and living lives revolving around their kids or still in college or single. I want to hang out with friends, go to dinner or go shopping. I want to sit on our new deck and cook on the grill and relax. I don't want to drink 'til I'm drunk, I don't want to sing karaoke and I definitely don't want to do drugs with you. I'm missing my high school best friend. We used to be so close we could finish each other's sentences. Towards the end of high school are relationship was strained and it only became more strained in college. Romantic feelings got in the way and later it was that the friendship wasn't working both ways. Eventually I called him out on it. I couldn't take listening to his problems and never being able to talk to him about my life. I know regret that because instead of fixing our issues it ended our friendship. He tried for a few weeks but then our friendship just crumbled. I was so hurt I almost didn't invite him to the wedding but I did and I'm glad. That was the last time we spoke. I called on his birthday but he didn't call back. It's sad but I don't know what to do about it. We are in very different places in our lives.

So that's what has been on my mind.

Quick Update

We found a house! We close the 29th and move in July 7th. If all goes as planned, details and pics soon!

This weekend I planned my first Doxie Platdate. I found this great doggie daycare and we had a great turn-out. They had baby pools for the puppies to cool off in and they had ramps and obstacles for the puppies to play on.

And the house hunt continues... We put in an offer on the house described in the last post and they counter offered and we counter offered and they counter offered. It still wasn't low enough so we rejected the offer and had to move on.  We have a new realtor and saw some great homes on Saturday. We have our eye on one but I don't want to jinx it. 

Other then house hunting, Missy is home from Prague! I missed her lots but she's having a hard time finding a job for the summer and an apartment for next semester. I think it's been a hard transition for her. Work is going well. There's a lot of drama but I'm still new so a lot of it happens without me knowing or being involved at all. My mom is ok, she has had a headache for a couple of days. It's hard to feel so helpless and there's a lot of old feelings that come back up. I had lunch with Missy yesterday and it was really good to have some sister time and talk about stuff. 

We visited Mike's parents over memorial day weekend. I went into it with hard feelings because we were not so much asked to come visit but told that either we were visiting or they were visiting us. However, it was an ok weekend. For 4 years we've avoided going to see the Abe Lincoln Presidential Museum but we ran out of excuses that weekend. Luckily it wasn't quite as bad as we thought it would be and it didn't take that long, just a few hours Sunday morning. 

My dilemma at the moment is that Mike's second cousin (who threw my bridal shower in Springfield) is having a baby shower the same day that my cousin (and bridesmaid) Sara is having her graduation party. I want to go to Sara's but I feel like I should go to Tina's shower. I've feeling torn. I have a couple weeks to figure it out though.