It's been a rough couple of days. I am now unemployed. My grandma is really sick. I went to see her. It's hard to leave when you are fully aware that you may never see her again. It's hard to say goodbye. I've never been good at goodbyes.

Why do we push everyone who cares away at the times when we need them most? Why do I hermit myself in when I need company the most?

I feel lost.